you're out by the old elementary school in your mind alone again, aren't you? that's okay. i do the same thing all the time. being alone is not the same thing as being lonely. and, as john darnielle says, "it feels worthwhile because it is." you never know what you might find inside yourself and your memories that you can still be surprised by. (god that was a bad sentence. sorry.) you are full of strange and useful. just don't get so lost looking that you go mad and murder somebody.